I Love you Maggi

I Generally don’t believe in posting & writing something on my wall but today couldn’t stop myself as I was Deeply in love with something & without that my journey till the date might not be possible. Whatever people Say but I am 200% sure about all you guys have spent your Hostel / collage life and without this our life might be in the difficult situation. I still remember the nights when I miss my Mom & you use to fill my stomach without taking more than 2 minutes, Not sure how many days of the exams we just survive because you been easily reachable next to my home, I was in such a deep love with you that, it impacted my all Roomi/friends/relatives and they all started loving you as well. When people started scolding you I couldn’t stop asking people that, have you forget the days when you used to enjoy with me. I felt deeply touched when Media started saying that you are unsafe for consumption just because of masala samples / tastemakers have content beyond the prescribed limit along with containing monosodium forgetting the fact that in there office pantry + Home still you are available. In the todays contaminated world is there anything pure and 100% healthy , my answer is a Big ‘No’ …

Never Say the 7 Facts in your life to reach out to your destination .

Never Say the  7 Facts in your life to reach out to your destination ..I am  trying Are you?

1. “I hate my job”…………

2. “That’s not fair” But I deserve it more……

3. “That’s not how it’s done here” …. Because it has always been done this way

4. “That’s not my job”…..

5. “That’s impossible” That can’t be done,” “I can’t do this”

6. “I could have” “I should have,” “I might have been able to”

7. “I have no choice” I have no other options,” “I’ve done all I can

!!! I Killed my self!!!

Waoo ; Sounds good--&; I killed my self........!

After working 3+ years in IT, finally i reached at the level where i can say , "Yes" i killed ,my self.....There is no hope to go back and look into the things what i wanted to do with the life, now i am a  robot who works on remote control. During this span of time seen almost most all kind of personality who plays a different role at different time,based on the situations & there selfishness.
                                                                                     I was thinking to get what i wanted & consider the fact that time never stops , world continues & life goes on,we need to grow. but in the recent days ,don't know what happened i wanted to stop & don't want to move on as well as grow UP...!
                                                                                                                                 Started asking this question to my self that , what happened that, i killed my self, who forced me to do this...unfortunately no answer from my soul........
                                   

Khud se khud ki ladai

Agar ye sapna nahi to kaya hai, khudi me khud  ko dekhta hu...

lekin phir bhi kabhi khud me khud ko nahi dekha pata ...

Agar ye majak nahi  to to kya .. sapno me bhi sapnoo ki duniya me rahata hu ...

Un sare sapno ke sach hone ke sapne me jita hu,..

Agar ye sapno ki lahar nahi hai to kya hai ..

khud se hi khud to bana kar; khudi se khud to mita kar , khudi me mil jata hu ....

Agar ye khud se khud ki ladai nahi to kya hai ...

Jagana to chahta hu par magar dar hai ki apna sab kuch kho dunga..

ab karu to kya karo ,isme bhi koi sak nahi ki khud to kho kar,maine khud to pa lunag..

I got relies

I got relies ……I am happy Now, Got the Precious gift from God or from my Project manger Ashutosh J

But whether I am really happy? May be …..leaving behind the People with whom I spend what a Unforgettable catchy 1.5 year,,,,Leaving behind the People who all always take Pride in My Growth intentionally or Unintentionally …leaving behind my Desk where I have learn how to sit continuously & get frustrate due to work Pressure and due to others …leaving behind that Place where I got mastery in Copy-Paste ….Place where I learned from MY Mistakes, Place where I learned how to tackle with Problems ….leaving behind the Place where I got my first salary …..Leaving behind the Place where we have celebrated many Pizzaaa Party secretly, Place where I used to have my morning Tea….leaving behind the Place where I have spend almost half of 1.5 year which I spend in office ….. it was Taught….. But then also I am happy…!!!!!!

How small & Pocket Size life Passes!!! With the touch of profit and losses. ,,, At early age, we Played with toys...After Passing time our toys become utensils..In my early days My/our interest was in Tom & jerry or in Saktimaan...soon with time we started liking Computer, Blackberry, G-talk, orkut & Now Face book and Twitter.... Changes from Cycle to Bike, Changes from Pocket money to Salary, changes from Local to Branded Jeans/shoes, changes from Non Ac Buses to Volvos. Changes occur from birth to death because "Changing is the only constant thing in the world" and that only I tried to do here. After working more than 1.5 year in same Project I need some changes and I got .

Sometimes in Life you have to take such decision.

Completed one year as IT dog

Yeh Samay Nahi Rukta Bas, Badta Jata Hain …...

Zindaagi Kaa Yeh Pahiya Uhee Chalta Jata Hain.

Samay Samay Kii Baat Hain….

Kaha jata hai Samay Bada Bhalwaan, Beej Ko Aanaj,Raja Ko Rank, Zakham Ko Nasoor,Mujrim

Ko Bekasoor Mujhe Shayr,Tumhe Gazal Bana Deta Hai…..

Naa Samay Rokke Se Rukta Hain…..

Today I completed my 1 year in this IT software Field … Joined on 29 of July 2010 and today is July 2011. With many dreams like all other Graduated I also joined ….i joined here along with 17 more guys/ Girls. When I was in collage I always have dream to work in IT industry and due to this only I never tried for other kind of Government job ( but my father always forced me to do ). Anyways the day when I joined was like Dream comes True. But this was only for Starting days and it’s like “Door ke Dhool Suhavan lage” means “Pleasant sound of distant drums”!
Story starts from the day of training .we all were just pass out from collage so no one having any ego and attitude except one. As days pass I became close to few of them like Bhavesh Ojha, Ashutosh Aman and no doubt Girish who was from same collage were I have done my Engg. After few days Me and Bhavesh got a project and we are out of 17. We joined Nokia CMS Project in Logica. I was happy because we were the first who got project. Now we have completed almost one month and working for Nokia.All other still waiting for Project. During this span of time I generally used to go to Training room where all used to sit. Few of the lucky got Project but still many more have to. It’s almost more than 2 months and three of them couldn’t found any project. I was little bit worried about them so I contacted with my link in HR” What they told was shocking …….!!!!!!!! I came to know that Logica is planning to terminate Guys/girl. I started thinking about my two close one from them, but I never told this thing and finally one of them is out!!!!

Anyways how time passed ,,,no idea….. Entered into project, started working on that, KT completed and two new people are in picture now ….. Prashant who is my TL and other one is Mayank ,who was in the same project more than 4 year…..!!!

What shold i do ???

I feel frustrated & in despair. Depressed even…….. I got a job, which is nice to pay the rent, but it’s not to give satisfaction .after struggling almost more than 6 months I got this job and when I was joining I was so happy but Work depressed me. It sucks the color out of the world. It makes me melancholic. During this span of time I tried to do the things what I want but I couldn’t. i tried to do all that thing what I want, but even after doing this all I am not happy. The point is, work sucks. It’s pointless. It brings me down. It makes life seem meaningless. Office to home, work and only work……!!!!!!!!Every one other than me is happy in this world .may be its just my thinking but it’s true. Whether I am Dog…..?????

I need a job which is made for me. I won’t be happy unless i get that. All I want is to express myself in real world. To feel joy, happiness…….. My current work doesn’t excite me. I dread it. I feel like vomiting when I go, and it permeates my life, my non work days, my off days even!!!!!!!

How do I deal with the sorrow filled work life, and still maintain my sanity here!!!!!!

I just want one day, where i wake up, and i see in my inbox an e-mail from a dream job asking me to be a part of it or something. I need that.

What to say about thisssss

I heartily greet 120 Crore Indians on the 64th anniversary of our independence…..Before this I would like to thank from bottom of my heart to the All Auto Drivers from Bangalore who let me fill that Boss today is Independence Day, otherwise in this Bangalore for All IT fucker it was just a holiday nothing else!!!!!!!! Wait Boss here in B’lore many offers going on All Shop,,,,, I was standing almost 200mtr from Koramangala Police station near one BAR……” Buy 3 Kingfisher Get one Free” Hurry up!!! All wine shops open with Independence Day offer price. …Wait one of my Friend got SMS from a BAR regarding “we have Happy Hours from11-08” oh its great man Come we will go, this was the first word said by All IT Dogs!!!!!! I was actually searching someplace where people celebrate Independence Day flag hosting and all....!!!! Suddenly my heart told to me where are you going man, this is B’lore (electronic city or City of Itians) here every one is well educated & most of them are Software Engg , they can’t wake in morning no matter what day is today . For them it’s just a holiday…!!!! Luckily I reached to a school, Thank god these kids are here & they know today is ….!!!!

Our respected PM MMS was addressing from the historic Red Fort saying “we are devolving and we will convert the dreams of our freedom fighters into reality” you are absolutely Right sir ji in this 64 year we have changed almost everything no idea what will happen in next 64 year … I will try to get some idea from Abhishek bachchan….MMS, you are the most coward of all Sardars or in PM . Sardars are those Poud sons, who have protected our country countless times. We are so proud of our sighs because sing is king. Sardars are known for their pride and righteousness. However you have proved all that as wrong. You are nothing but a helpless pussycat who is purring up to the legs of Gandhi family. Whole nation can see it, but surprisingly not you..... You ask yourself this question, what kind of person are you. I closed my radio. I am sorry but I do not like to listen/hear reading your speech from your master (Sonia/Rahul / Priyanka /Robert/Kapil /Rajnath..... etc) . Wake up and behave like a Sardar (king). This is your last wakeup call

!!!Bachpan!!!

Childhood(Bachpan)…the most wonderful and fun filled time of everybody’s life. It is one part of our lives that is just miraculous and is difficult to express in words. I now at the age of 23 when look back, desire from core of my heart that if someone could just turn back time for me and give me those precious moments back…but I know it’s impossible

Phir aaj kuch purane bakse tatolne ko jee chahta hai,

Bachpan ko phir ek baar jeene ko jee chahta hai,,

Dhool mei lipte, kuch khilone hain abhi tak rakhe huye,

Unki dhool hata, phir ek baar sajane ko jee chahta hai,,

Yu to bachpan mei lautna hamesha hee jee chahta hai

Par aaj apna bachpan kuch jayada hee yaad aata hai,,…

Vo barish aur meethi dhup se bana Vo indradhanush ya ho raat ke jugnu,

Jo bachpan mei lubhate the itna, unka ehsaas bhi hona hai ab mushkil

Har din ki daud bhaag mei, jhat se bada hone ki chah mei

Vo bachpan mujhse phisal gaya aur sab kuch badal gaya ek baar mei,

Saam ko aakar khelane ki chinta ,sone ke baad na jagne ki chinta

Vo baar baar Maa ka Uthana , Phir bhi lekin na khane ki chinta

Par aaj apna bachpan kuch jayada hee yaad aata hai,,…..

Vo mele me jane ki Zid , jane ke baad na aane ki Zid,

Vo Fugge ki chah ,aur Jalebi ki Mithas

Vo aate Waqt Papa ka Kanda ….

Uss bachapan ko koi mujhe lauta de kash,

Aur Samay ka pahiya koi ulta chale de aaj…

Phir aaj kuch purane bakse tatolne ko jee chahta hai,

Bachpan ko phir ek baar jeene ko jee chahta hai,....